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(no subject) [Oct. 4th, 2006|09:51 am]
Chiboshi Kei
So, my ex suddenly posts again after months of not speaking to me. And then he leaves on a mission without telling me. Who cares, he's an adult. It's his business. He's not in my life anymore. I can't help but be bitter, but I really don't care anymore. It's over so it doesn't bother me.

I'm probably ready to start dating again. The pain's lessened and I can't let this control my life. I'm moving on.

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Luckily, my shift should be coming up so spending some quality time with an old friend should be a sobering experience. He always reminds me of when I'm being an idiot even when I'm not but for once I need a good dose of my former leader.
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(no subject) [Sep. 4th, 2006|10:49 pm]
Chiboshi Kei
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Working on polishing the notes before publishing. I think its going well, but its still a lot of work.

I haven't heard from Kotetsu in a long time. I guess he really forgot about me. But there is so much more to think about. I mean- we're insanely busy. I'm surprised I have time to type. In fact, I'm glad I'm busy. Maybe I am finally moving on?

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(no subject) [May. 26th, 2006|09:09 pm]
Chiboshi Kei
Ibiki's back. He turned himself in. There's going to be a hearing of some kind and perhaps a trial.

Part of me is still angry, and part of me is glad he's back. Atleast under him we were all organized. He's harsh but he still was a good leader. And he could drink anyone under the table.

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Maybe I should visit, even though he likes to threaten to torture me.
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Mom, why are there dead people next to the icecream? [May. 23rd, 2006|06:53 pm]
Chiboshi Kei
[mood |exhaustedexhausted]

Well, I'm still alive. And Konoha is still standing. This makes the second time that Orochimaru has tried to destroy the village and FAILED.

Anyways, aside from having several cracked ribs and other injuries, I also forgot my birthday during the conflict. Raidou-san was the only one to remember. So, I'm eighteen now. It really doesn't feel any different.

The Chiboshi house is still standing and has been acting as a makeshift morgue for housing some of the dead. I have no clue what made Mom decide to open up the lab storage freezer for that. I'm just glad that Oka isn't allowed down in the lab/storage area because I wasn't even told about it when I had checked in to replenish my supplies. I took it rather well considering we've gotten a bit too used to seeing the dead lately. So, I almost dropped a beaker of rattlesnake venom. I admit it.

I don't know how long we'll get to rest before we are forced to head back out. The situation has only lessened slightly from high alert in the village area, but there could still be danger. Or we might be sent out of the village to try and track the enemies movements.

I don't know and I don't care at the moment. My swords need repair and I'm too tired.
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(no subject) [Mar. 26th, 2006|05:31 pm]
Chiboshi Kei
Current status: Alive and tired. Can't remember how long we've been fighting.

Current location: Right, I'm going to list it as a big "come here and kill me" flag.

Number of kills I've taken care of: Eight...Wait, ten.

Injuries: Bruised ribs. Took a bad hit to the head, but I don't think I have a concussion. I think I've broken two of my fingers, but one's my pinky and the other is still useable. As long as I can hold my sword, I'm fine. Speaking of which, chipped my katana piercing some guy's armor. I'm going to have to be in the market for a new one...No time to get a replacement blade from the house, anyways.

Number of losses: ...

Anyone know how many hours/days its been since this all started?
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(no subject) [Feb. 27th, 2006|06:49 pm]
Chiboshi Kei
[mood |tiredtired]
[music |Headstrong [Trapt]]

All the kills and all the blood is beginning to burn and blend together into a constant flow. Can't remember how many hours its been. It just keeps coming and it doesn't change.

My body's slowing down but I'm not stopping just yet. I should probably find a place to rest but no place is safe. Everything just becomes more mechanical in battle. The part that's me just shuts off and I move and kill more easily than I did before. I don't have the hesitation I did a year ago. Since when did this all become so automated.

I would state where I am, but it would be unwise to give away my position. Things have become much tougher since last time, but there is no way I am going to admit to Sound learning any new tricks.

I've seen two dead ANBU in the streets already and sixteen dead Konohanin. Luckily, I am not familliar with who wears those particular masks. I just hope that no one I am close to is dead.
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Ready to Kill [Jan. 31st, 2006|08:12 pm]
Chiboshi Kei
[mood |apatheticapathetic]
[music |Never Told You What I Did For a Living (My Chemical Romance)]

It's strange to feel so hollow for once before a battle. I'm usually anxious and nervous with excitement and worried over wether myself or loved ones will be killed. But for once, I don't think I would mind much being killed if I took down so many opponents with me. Is it weird that its making me feel a bit better? Other than that I just feel so numb after what happened with...Well, let's not talk about it.

Konoha is eeriely quiet. You jump if you hear so much as a twig snap behind you. There have been a few accidents I've heard of already where someone accidently injured a friend because their nerves were so pent up and they thought that Sound was already attacking. People are saying goodbye to each other like they might never see each other again at the office. Its like "see ya later" but with a strange in their eyes.

But we've all been through this before...when the Chuunin exams were in our village...We know we'll survive and Konoha will still be here. Orochimaru should know he's only setting himself up for another failure.

My blades are ready to cut.

Anyways, if I don't make it- this might be good bye. So I'm going to be drinking with the guys and for once I don't care about being underage. Jiraiya-sama, thanks for being there. Tenten, try not to stress too much or pull your hair out and kick major butt. Same goes for Neji- you've gotten better, but quit scowling. Hatake-san, Kurenai, Mitarashi-san and Genma...you're like the weird bigger brothers and sisters I never had. Thank you. Kimi-kun, whoever and wherever you are, I wish you the best as my mysterious penpal person and please keep trying to study plants. Iruka-san, thanks for believing in me and letting me teach. Konohamaru-kun, listen to Iruka-san, OH WAIT, you graduated. Listen to Ebisu-sensei...he is in charge of you right? Uzumaki-kun, I'm sorry about that s-scorpion thing, but I think I'm less afriad of them now. Yamanaka- don't fake your death again. As retribution for all the shit Ibiki put me through, I think I might come back and haunt him so I'm going to give him hell for Ino too >:D Capt. Suzu, please look after the boys because if one of us makes it out, its you. Oka-chan, grow big and strong and take care of mom. Kotetsu....I STILL love you, you asshole.

I hope I'm not forgetting anyone. If I am, I apologize! O_O

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(no subject) [Jan. 13th, 2006|07:39 pm]
Chiboshi Kei
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[mood |shockedupset]

Well...Mr. Hagane has decided that there is something wrong with our relationship. I don't know what it is or what I said. I suppose I have pushed him away too much so its only to be expected...

But Kotetsu, can't you atleast let me know WHAT'S WRONG?! I've never lied or hid anything from you. And I deserve to know why you're acting so cold.

I don't know what to do. I'm under a lot of pressure and this is the only thing that has really made me shake. My focus is entirely off when I practice, yet I only feel better if I'm cutting something or hitting something or throwing kunai at something.

I'm wondering if I scared him away or if he is doing this so I won't worry about him as much when Sound finally attacks. Or if I pushed him away for being so frigid and well, even mean to him this past month.

I can't think about this right now. I know I should just put it furthest from my mind. Ninjas are not supposed to let personal ties or emotions trouble them.

I hope Sound attacks soon, because I NEED some major stress relief.
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(no subject) [Dec. 24th, 2005|01:44 pm]
Chiboshi Kei
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[mood |apatheticapathetic]

I'm..feeling better as of late. I think I'm really scaring Kotetsu with my behavior and I apologize. I've become a workaholic and increasingly irritable again and rather pessimistic. I think its putting a strain on our relationship. I really don't know why he still puts up with me...we're still together but sometimes I'm so agitated that there is little he can do to help.

Konoha Chuunin and Above onlyCollapse )

I've been training a lot more and doing a few missions inside the village. Our unit has patrolled the perimeter a few times, but no sign of anything to unusual or Ibiki. Suzu seems impressed with how much my skills have changed since I was "on haitus". I think sparring with Jiraiya's plants actually did help. How strange. I've broken more training swords in a month than I have ever before.

Also, I've been working on my notes. I think I'm going to near publishing soon, but its a matter of coaxing Jiraiya-sama's editor to give me some names of contacts. He said he'd do it himself if he wasn't involved in another form of literature smut than the academic.

Ironically, I've been so steamed up, I had no problem working on the ones for my archnemsis. Even though I did drop the jar a few times because I was nervous..um..one of the desert samples escaped once, but he's back in his safe place.

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(no subject) [Nov. 25th, 2005|11:04 am]
Chiboshi Kei
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[mood |coldcold]

Ino's alive. WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?! Everyones been panicing and going NUTS!

That makes my depression a bit better. I've been doing nothing but working. It's getting to Kotetsu, I know. I'm either locked away working on my notes or with the squad.

Jiraiya-sama, where are you? I could really use some fatherly advice...

It makes the shock hurt a little less. I'm still crazed and worried about what's going to happen now.

My unit is listed as a back up unit. I was able to meet with the squad while in town. I was wondering if anything could happen to make Suzu more quiet and distant than before but now I know. Its affecting us all.

Kotetsu and I had a few words. He's insanely worried about me being on the BACK UP unit list, even though that means we might not even be called up. I reminded him of what was expected with my rank but I don't think it did any help. We also talked about other things. Just because I love him doesn't mean I can abandon honor and duty. I dunno...maybe its just a good idea to slow down for a while...

I don't want to kill Ibiki. I still respect him, even though he was always a crazed lunatic. He was still a damn good commander. But he is now a traitor and if fate should have it And Anko or someone else doesn't get to him first I will do what is expected of me as an ANBU and a member of the village. If I kill him, its meant to be. If he kills me, that was meant to happen I guess. NEJI SMACK ME! I'M SOUNDING HOW YOU USED TO SOUND!

Kimi-kun, where are you? I haven't heard from you in a while.

I think I'm slipping.
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